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Try Anyway

So I am a professional burn out.  That is all I know, it is either ramp up, amp up and get no sleep OR veg out, eat out and sleep all the time.  The one thing about all of this that is remotely redeemable is that despite the things about me that ruin progress for success, I try anyway.

I was thinking of changing my tagline to “try anyway” because that really is my motto, that is what I keep telling myself when I am mopy and get nothing done.  There is this mystical and super powerful gap between daydreaming something and then actually doing it.  How bizarre it is to me, that I can be sitting in front of the computer, day dreaming about a blog post that I want to write, thinking it over and enjoying how good it sounds in my head…all the while my fingers are doing no typing and that little cursor just keeps blinking and all my thoughts and anything that I can offer the world continues to live in a vacuum!

One way I have combated this is just doing something, and then giving it out to the world, more often than not it is not polished, and really seams cheap or quickly slapped together…many of my android apps can attest to this, and I am in no way saying that it is okay to settle for this kind of quality if I know that I can do better, but for my personal issues of struggling to even do something in the first place this really is better than nothing.  I hope to make improvements in iterations since when I at least do something I have faced that fear and that dread, that overwhelming feeling of incompetence, and did something  I have thousands (somewhere around 20,000) people that have downloaded my android apps.  If you know much about mobile apps you know that is not much, but it is thousands more than if I just in front of the computer daydreaming or just playing video games.

The reason for this post, more than anything, has been the books and the blogs I have been reading on how to blog better, get more followers, engage readers and how to be able to do something like this full time.  There are so many great suggestions and tactics that when I sit down to write I am overwhelmed, I think I cannot even start to write unless I have these big checklists…and hence I have not written for over a week.

I was thinking of writing a post titled “What Am I Doing?” and ask my readers what they expect from my blog, or what do they think I write about, what would you like to see and read?  I am desperate to find like minded peers, I am tormented by the fact that everyone seems to want to live such mediocre lives, that there is little to no drive out there and the really burns out my drive since it cannot find an outlet.

Thanks for reading and please let me know what you think or any suggestions that you have!

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Holy cow I have not been blogging or getting any of the usually stuff done.  This last two or so weeks have been intense for me building for my future.  I got the book “Platform” by Michael Hyatt, and read that all the way through, then I had this feeling that I should start a video blog, I got a little excited and then let it die cause it would be a lot of work.  But the feeling persisted almost to dread if I did not do it, I kept thinking that I just could not do it or that it would be no good.  I finally just made myself do it, and here it is for you to view in this blog!

Hope you enjoyed it, I only made it like a week ago but with all I have been trying to do I just never blogged about it.

THEN I decided to get serious about my website, my previous one http://www.hartwired.com was pretty lackluster, and now that domain points to the same place as the new URL http://www.hartsoffice.com.  The great thing about this site is that it markets me, what I do for the company I work for, my teaching and coaching in software that I do for a school here in Drumheller, and what I do on my own.  The exciting thing that this brand that I am building can come with me where ever I go.  So when I do move back to Utah, or move to Germany…that all my work will not be for nought in that new location.

I love the adage that Dave Ramsey so often uses in saying, “Leave the cave, kill something, and drag it home!”  I can fight mediocrity and so can you!

What are you doing to find, kill and drag something home? (Note: of course you know this is a metaphor for finding success, no actual killing is needed unless you work at a meat processing plant of some kind…)

It takes Courage to Blog!

I just purchased and have been furiously reading Michael Hyatts book “Platform”, it has an overwhelming amount of great information about blogging and social media, but something really struck me and has been resonating in me the last few days:

“If we are going to create wow experiences, we must become courageous. This is a personal, psychological bridge we need to cross. What we want to create—that wow experience—is on the other side of the ravine. There’s no other way to get there from here.”

Hyatt, Michael (2012-05-22). Platform: Get Noticed in a Noisy World (Kindle Locations 634-636). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edition.

I thought that was fairly neat as I read, then I continued on and the usually fears cropped up:

* I should be doing something else…
* I should stop reading and look for my lost bluetooth…
* Doing the things in this book will take too long, so why bother…
* Go get a real job and just deal with it…

This is the best way that I can put some of the fears into words, but really it is a dreadful feeling that just wants to deter me from doing ANYTHING.  But this quote has really helped me, it pointed out that there would have to be some courage involved!  That being said, there would be fears to overcome, inaction to defeat, and sacrifices to be made if I want to get to where I want to be.

The worse fear is the future projection of failure, I have at least a good two solid times (that I can still remember clearly) being in a situation of absolute horror, bills were due, no money was coming in, the job I had at the time was shaky or I was unemployed.  The feelings I have had at those times resurface just long enought to say “Don’t go for it, get somewhere safe, keep low, keep quiet, don’t get noticed, they can’t hit what they can’t see…” a terrible mindset and a perfect path to staying mediocre.

I have many ideas that come to my mind and excite my whole being, but I almost never act on them, here is another impressive quote from Hyatts book:

“Listen to your heart. Most of us have spent a lifetime ignoring—or even suppressing—our intuition. I don’t know if this is a product of modern rationalism or American pragmatism. Regardless, I believe intuition is the map to buried treasure. It is not infallible, but neither is our reason. And it can point us in the right direction. We need to pay attention to this inner voice.”

Hyatt, Michael (2012-05-22). Platform: Get Noticed in a Noisy World (Kindle Locations 682-685). Thomas Nelson. Kindle Edition.

The biggest thing is that listen in this sense means to ACT.  To do, if my heart and mind and spirit or whatever is telling me to do a video blog, then I should DO IT.  This has been a tough one for me and I still have not got it started, I just dunno what to say on the camera or how to act.  Courage, I need it really bad!

So I am asking you, how do you build your courage?

This has been an awful awful awful week.  I started out last weekend getting a little tickle in my throat, and I always know that if my brain registers a constant slight tickle, that it will progress to to full blown sore throat from Hell.  I tried taking Airbourne and and Vitamin C, as well as eat and orange and it’s peel…but anyhow I got a nasty sore throat.

Had trouble sleeping at all two days this week, my two year is having weird poo’s because of iron supplements that we have to give her, and the Sales job is just stressing me out.  People want a song and dance and a product in hand before they will even humour the idea of thinking about buying something from your company.

But back to the title of this post.  My biggest fantasy is that I can solve a major life problem over the weekend.  I delude myself to thinking that if I write an incredible blog post, then I will get more hits and then someone will want to pay me for being awesome…that is where is breaks down, I know that I am not in the mode of ever paying someone else just for being awesome.

So then I think I will work on my books and then people will buy them and I can pay the bills!  But after taking a Tylenol with Codine in it I was just staring at the wall and almost drooling.  So I am trying to not take the painkiller for my throat and get something done, but now I am just grumpy cause my throat aches intensely.  Over a week long sore throat?! Really!? Why? There is just no reason for that, it is un-called for as my dad would always say.

There is a neat job in San Antonio, Texas that is right up my alley, pays well and all that fun stuff.  But after seeking some counsel from my dad he said that I would need at least $5,000 to make the move, and probably another $5,000 to get settled in.  So there is nothing I can do there to make that happen over the weekend. I know this is true cause I have moved on a whim twice now and it is always a bad idea unless you have a slush fund to do it.

Went to a community education forum meeting last night.  While it was nice to get validated on what I was telling people is what everyone else is experiencing too, I was disappointed that no talk was made about what to do and how to do it.  It is like we all walked out to a canyon that we all desperately want to cross, and we say, “oh yes, that is a deep canyon…oh yes that is a difficult thing to get across…are we all in agreement? Great, see you all later.”  How about HOW are we going to cross it?  A bridge? Great idea, who knows how to build a bridge? How much will it cost?  Are we willing to pay for it? And so on, so frustrated, yes, that is almost my mantra is to be frustrated.  I will just say it out loud cause a good friend of mine will read this post sooner or later and she will comment that I sound frustrated…yet again!

So I have this weekend, where no one can bug me with due cause, I can have some time to myself, my wife is really good at letting me be or letting me go for a drive in the name of doing something to better the family situation or even just for myself.

I broke down and played Starcraft II on the 9th, I was suppose to go till the 11th, but I just couldn’t think of what else to do, not playing has gotten me to write some good stuff and be fairly productive, but that productivity still did not produce much of anything.  All three games that I played were Terran vs. Terran and I won all three… if that makes any difference.

Stick a fork in me, I am done!  My biggest comfort so far is listening to the Beatles singing “Let it Be”.

I Love Thinking Space!

I was gonna say that I love Mind Jet….BUT they would not give me any way to make my mind map a picture file that I could share with the world….and thinking space (its’s predecessor) will!  I don’t know why but when things are organized and tangible it gets me really excited and ramped up to get more done and reach my goals.  Here I have included my mind map for building wealth.  Click the pic to get the full size and tell me what you think, what can I add, what is pointless, would you like me to build you a mind map like this to be able to keep track of your progress?

Trust me, you need one of these!